why?

You eased the pain when I faked the wound. You calmed me down when I faked the mood. You were instantly there when I faked the call. But why didn’t you catch me? I didn’t fake the fall…

love…magic…illusion

“When your feelings get strong for someone, it’s always wise to stop for a while and give your heart a time to breathe.. a time to use your mind, to weigh the situation based on reason, not on emotion.. because the saddest thing that can happen is when someone falls in love while the other wants nothing more than friendship..

Love can sometimes be magic, but magic can sometimes be just an illusion…”

only choice

Somewhere between heartaches and waiting,
comes another chance to be found by someone
who can show you that,

you don’t deserve to be just an OPTION,
but..

THE ONLY CHOICE…

silly…

Treat me like an angel and I’ll be your lil’ devil.

succeed to fail???

If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

needing someone

Needing someone is like needing a parachute. If he isn’t there the first time you need him, chances are you won’t be needing him again.

love

Love is a lot like a backache, it doesn’t show up on X-rays, but you know it’s there.

the brain

The brain is a wonderful organ; it starts working the moment you get up in the morning, and does not stop until you get into the office.

success

The elevator to success is out of order. You’ll have to use the stairs… one step at a time.

accidents

We are glorious accidents of an unpredictable process with no drive to complexity, not the expected results of evolutionary principles that yearn to produce a creature capable of understanding the mode of its own necessary construction.

thoughts…

We may have loved the wrong person, we may have cried for the wrong reason but no matter how things go wrong, one thing’s for sure, mistakes help us find things that are meant for us.

so many times…

I fell in love so many times, but love never gave me a chance to know how it feels to be loved back by the person I loved so much.

sad…

It’s really sad when you finally found the person you wanna be with for the rest of your life, but still, that person isn’t contented with what you are giving and leaves you all alone…and you…still there, wondering what went wrong.

these past few days…

This past few days, I started to miss you, I have this feeling and I don’t know how to deal with it then I realized it’s love, I know I can’t let this grow, coz we’re friends….yeah…we’re just friends

ask me…

Ask me if I care for you, I’m gonna say “I really do”…

ask me if I miss you, I’ll say “yah, I do”…

but if you ask me if I need you, I won’t answer…

instead, I will ask you “would you care to need me too?”

for u…

I’m sorry if I’ve walked out again.

I’m sorry if I’ve left you hanging again.

It’s just that I’m so scared that if I don’t walk away and leave,

I’ll be loving you too much for nothing.

Birthday Wish…

This is my wish for you:

Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.

i have learned…

I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

loving someone who doesn’t love you…

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.

for you… my gay (???) friend …

I don’t know why i feel like writing this… Maybe because I am surrounded with gays, some are obvious, some are pretentious, some are even so close to me and think that I will condemn them or something… just because they are gay… so what? i don’t care.. as long as you do me no harm, i’m not affected… as long as you treat me as your friend and not just use me because you want someone you like (who is of course the same sex as you are) get jealous.

I know you afraid to come out for fear of upsetting your family and friends, or fear of rejection by the community you are now in especially your religion. This takes time  to overcome. Well I got good news for you…you dont have to be "out" on anyone’s schedule but on your own. Just please, try to be "you". Especially in front of me. Am ok with it. Don’t lead me on… Coz I wont buy it. Be true to yourself.

gays… on issues of "coming out…"

Just as you are unique, so is everyone around you and so they will all react differently. Some people will have no problems with your sexuality and be happy for you, some may have already suspected and were just waiting for you to tell them. For others it will challenge their feelings towards you. They may feel worried angry or responsible.

It may be necessary to allow them time and space. Shock, denial, and feelings of guilt are often experienced by people when they are told someone close to them is gay, lesbian or bisexual. Remember you have probably given your sexuality a lot of thought, but it may be new to them. Although the feelings they may work through are similar to those you’ve dealt with, the difference is that you’re ahead of them in the process.

You may want them to understand and grasp this important part of your life right away and give you support. However, you may need to allow people time to express their own feelings. Try to be patient.

You may also need to explain things a few times. Just because you’ve said something once does not mean they have heard it. Later they may be ready to ask questions, listen to answers and acknowledge their feelings.

If your family or friends reject you because of your feelings, it is hurtful and can be difficult to cope with. Remember you are sharing an important part of yourself. If people choose to ignore this, they are missing out on knowing who you are. Hold onto who you are. Hold onto the fact that you are special and are individual. There are people who will help you reach out for their support.