what i meant to say….
June 30, 2007When you say I'm beautiful I say "yeah right," but what I'm really saying is "do you really think so?" When you say good job I say "thanks" but what I'm really saying is "I love that you notice." When you say we'll be together forever I say "I hope so" but what I'm really saying is "I hope forever never ends." When you say I love you I say "I love you too" but what I'm really saying is "never stop saying that." When you say that I don't care I say "yes I do" but what I'm really saying is "I care for you more than you'll ever know."
This is for the brokenhearted…
I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who sees. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this…
letting go….
Wanting him is hard to forget, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept, but even with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet…
forever blue…
June 28, 2007 Used to like the sound of the rainAnd feel your arms around me
Together we go insane,
But I wake up to where I should be
I’ve longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you’ll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
Don’t wanna be forever blue
‘Cause I deserve some love that’s true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
‘Cause I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid
To be forever blue
Gonna find some other guy for me
This time it will be just like the wind
Coming at the time it must be
And blowing to where I should be
I’ve longed for the wind,
They touch me through my feelings
And you’ll never know till they begin,
What you want is really what it means
Don’t wanna be forever blue
‘Cause I deserve some love that’s true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
‘Cause I’m afraid, I’m afraid, yeah, I’m afraid
To be forever blue
Don’t wanna be alone
I need someone to hold on to
And share my dreams with a love
A love that’s always true
Don’t wanna be forever blue
‘Cause I deserve some love that’s true
Finding it the hard way
And wishing for it everyday
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
‘Cause I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid
To be forever
I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah
‘Cause I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid
To be forever
‘Cause I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid
To be forever, woh
kasalanan ko ba???
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a song dedicated to the one who will always stay in my heart…. you know who you are….
http://www.tristancafe.com/music/flash/kasalanankoba.html
funny… and weird… so what’s the answer?
June 16, 2007- If a fork were made of gold would it still be considered silverware?
- Have you ever noticed that if you rearranged the letters in mother in law, they come out to Woman Hitler?
- Why are people so scared of mice, yet we all love Mickey Mouse?
- Why are people allowed to put naked statues outside but why can't we run outside naked?
- Why is "number" abbreviated as "no."? When there is no "o" in number?
- If marriage means you fell in love, does divorce mean you climbed out?
- If someone can't see, they're blind and if someone cant hear, they're deaf, so what do you call people who can't smell?
- Why is it called pineapple, when's there neither pine nor apple in it?
- Why is it called eggplant, when there's no egg in it?
…more to come…
quotes about life…
- Life is a glitch in the universal program; death is just the programmer's way of debugging.
- Life is a lesson you'll learn it when you're through.
- Life is like a straw it sucks.
- Life isn't weird; it's the people in it.
- Life may suck, but it beats the alternative.
- Life's expensive; drive defensive.
- Life's way too short to stay on topic
- Live as long as you like. It won't shorten how long you're dead.
- Live fast, die young, and leave a good-looking corpse behind.
At work, take note of the rules in the committee:
- Never arrive on time, or you will be stamped a beginner.
- Don't say anything until the meeting is half over; this stamps you as being wise.
- Be as vague as possible; this prevents irritating the others.
- When in doubt, suggest that a subcommittee be appointed.
- Be the first to move for adjournment; this will make you popular — it's what everyone is waiting for
Murphy’s Love Laws
- All the good ones are taken.
- If the person isn't taken, there's a reason. (corr. to 1)
- The nicer someone is, the farther away (s)he is from you.
- Brains x Beauty x Availability = Constant.
- The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them.
- Money can't buy love, but it sure gets you a great bargaining position.
- The best things in the world are free — and worth every penny of it.
- Every kind action has a not-so-kind reaction.
KARE-KARE
June 1, 2007
Kare Kare Ingredients: |
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1/2 kilo beef (round or sirloin cut) cut into cubes (for a more traditional kare kare, use cleaned beef tripe instead of beef)
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1/2 kilo oxtail, cut 2 inch long
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3 cups of peanut butter
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1/4 cup grounded toasted rice
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1/2 cup cooked bagoong alamang (anchovies)
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2 pieces onions, diced
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2 heads of garlic, minced
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4 tablespoons atsuete oil
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4 pieces eggplant, sliced 1 inch thick
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1 bundle Pechay (Bok choy) cut into 2 pieces
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1 bundle of sitaw (string beans) cut to 2" long
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1 banana bud, cut similar to eggplant slices, blanch in boiling water
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1/2 cup oil
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8 cups of water
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Salt to taste
Kare Kare Cooking Instructions: |
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In a stock pot, boil beef and oxtails in water for an hour or until cooked. Strain and keep the stock.
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In a big pan or wok, heat oil and atsuete oil.
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Sauté garlic, onions until golden brown, then add the stock, toasted rice, beef, oxtail and peanut butter. Bring to a boil and simmer for 15 minutes. Salt to taste.
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Add the eggplant, string beans, pechay and banana bud. Cook the vegetables for a few minutes - Do not overcook the vegetables.
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Serve with bagoong on the side and hot plain rice.
